#phylosofical

‘Looking back now, everything happened in a way that this encounter could happen. Every decision, unconscious choice and act lead into this direction. Under earth as a running water stream, breaking through rocks, bypassing mountains so the two rivers could flow into each other.’ (piece of a diary)

Not only events occur such way in our life. Emotions also. Uncontrollable, unstoppable.

Can we really direct our emotions? Can we really be cheerful, angry, enthusiastic purposely?

Can we love or not to love somebody intentionally?

Of course, from outside it seems we have all the possibility and free choice in our hand. We have the chance to fall in love to this person or to that person. But the question is, do we have the same equal chance inside? Can we really choose how we feel, whom we fall in love, whom we hate? Don’t our emotions determine our choice? But then what determines those emotions?

Or deep INSIDE there is a more powerful EXTERNAL force that we are exposed to, that we are unable to influence. We cannot see it, neither we understand it, but we are directed by it. Maybe for a purpose incomprehensible from our perspective.

Of course it can be suppressed to certain extent for some time. But is that correct? Is that healthy? Feeling as if we were living another life at the same time. As if another filmstrip were spinning in our soul.

Shall we not leave these powerful forces to find place in our lives? We cannot by-pass. They pave the way for themselves, only with more suffering.

Doesn’t that question free will?

So how is it then? We have the ability to choose free in life.. Really? Externally it may seem that every opportunity is given, but inside, isn’t it already determined?