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āEvery time I go around itās harder and harder to watch it. Watch them meet, become friends, fall in love, go to war together, get married, become the best monarchs. And then watch him after they die. Because it was unexpected. She didnāt die from an illness, they didnāt get their last words. I watch him fall past the pits of hell so quickly and it takes years to even become remotely okay. And as time progresses he gets better and better, but I never get to know the end, I never find out if heās happy. Because I die, or almost die, and then Iām forced to go through all of it again. I think thatās why we have such an unbreakable bond. He doesnāt know that I loop. Or at least I donāt tell him every time I loop. But I know him. I know every thought and every emotion that goes through him until the day I die. You might be wondering why, if I know everything thatās going to happen, why canāt I change things or give us a leg up. Because I made a promise. I met GOD (this is why lyah is spiritual on a weird level). The promise is that I can stay alive, but I will live my life on loop and I cannot change anything I or anyone else said or did outside of a slight margin of error. Basically Iām not allowed to change history. I know exactly whatās going to happen and I canāt tell anybody and it makes every death twelve times harder. GOD partially took away my ability to break the promise. I have been physically restrained by myself and an unseen force to be kept from doing things. My throat refuses to form the words and make the sounds of things Iām not allowed to say. And even if I managed to change things, then I would die. So you may go and try to do something āchangedā but you donāt know what has already been done so you donāt know what a deviation is. You might decide to go randomly kiss somebody to ābreak the cycleā when in reality, youāve done it in every cycle. For no other reason than thinking youāre making a change. Sometimes little things change. Subplots as I would like to call them. But the main events can never be changed. Maybe you save a life here or there but it all resets at the end of it all. And I donāt know if this is real or if this is in my head and no change ever actually really happens. Iām trapped. But I try to make the best of it. I donāt have to worry about money or planning for my future because I know exactly what is going to happen and then it all resets. I like seeing the slight variations through. You and Cassio have a few different variations of your relationship. Yeah, you date that jackass, don't ask me why. Sometimes this conversation spurs it. Sometimes itās different events in the future that I cannot disclose. Only a couple times you two got together within the first week of knowing each other.ā














