#phallo

Thank you!! I'm really really happy with him, and I'm just so glad I did this. It's a little devastating that it took me this long to be this happy with myself; it's been kind of bittersweet realizing that I never should've had any doubts whatsoever, and this was the right choice all along. It just makes me sad how effective internalized transphobia and other people's judgement can be.

I've been way too exhausted to write down like, any of my experience until now, and it's hard to type with one hand.

Recovery has been pretty awesome. I spent six days in the hospital and got home just a few days ago. I'm really happy with my penis. I spent so much time being scared leading up to surgery, but now that I've had it, I feel like I can do anything. Well, not literally. I'm very physically restricted right now. But metaphorically, I guess. There have been hard parts of the recovery, and times where I've felt very anxious, but I feel like I'm operating from this deep, undiscovered part of myself that is totally at peace now. That no matter what happens, I know everything is going to be okay. I'm just happy to have a penis at all.

bad news: i probably need to get the erectile rods taken out of my phallo cock. theyre kinda close to the surface of the skin and need to be repositioned.

good news: this is a good excuse to get some revisions made that ive been wanting to do anyways! they dont think my implant detached - at least not fully? if at all? it just wont stand up because my MAGNUM DONG is so HUGE AND HEAVY AND GIRTHY.

so, at some point in the next few months, ill probably be back up here again for surgery. shame. good thing is that it'll be a pretty short recovery time, so i wont be off work for like. over a month again lol.