#pet passing

>be me

>a bunch of misfortune hit me

>forgot it all because my baby boy cat passed

Anyway, I never post any of my own photography but I want the world to know that my baby Enrique was so, so loved. And he passed in such a peaceful way.

Rest easy my baba 💙💙💙

Oh, Oakley. I never wanted this day to come.

you were more than a dog, you were family

you showered me with unconditional love without missing a beat

my shadow for so many years

15 years still wasn’t long enough

And the world became considerably worse.

Give your pet a checkup, particularly a cancer-oriented one. Let it be his legacy, getting all the other pets checked.

Such a lovely, lovely boy.

Once, while driving in the procession for my cousins funeral (he was military) us siblings were deep in our feels and expressing it and my dad told us to stop crying.

Ever since i have not felt safe to cry much less bawl in front of him or other people.

Holding that shit it has never felt healthy but that moment has inhibited that perfectly normal emotional expression.

I wish no one any of that. I wish everyone the ability and safety to mourn loudly and for as long as they want and need. I hope someone will be there to hold them together so they can fall completely apart. Sometimes we have to shatter to start healing.

i have thought about the day i lose my cat Loki. And it is not pretty.

I know i will have to go somewhere away from everyone so i can fall apart without being shamed or told “he was just a cat” (preemptive fuck you btw).

So that i can kick and scream my soul raw and pound my hands on the ground till theyre bloody bc thats what it will take to get the pain away enough to function.

All the while, knowing my grief will be lonely. Those shattered pieces harder to heal as no one will be there to be my brace.

I hate to do this, but would people be willing to help contribute some money so I can buy an urn necklace so my fiance can put his dog's ashes in it.

Here's some pictures of the dog, Spike.

He's 12 years old, and has liver cancer. It's terminal. My fiance is in denial, and is spending as much time with Spike as he can.

Now, my fiance is in college, and I work as a seasonal photographer part time, we cannot afford to get the urn jewelry, and doesn't want to think about it right now, my season hasn't started yet, and Im solidly broke until late September - early October,

I would like to get my fiance, a pet urn necklace, with a matching small pendant that has your dog's face engraved on it. It's $50.

Tumblr please, through my Kofi, or dm me for my Venmo