#pessmistic

Mike Novogratz talks pessimistically about Bitcoin

Mike Novogratz, ex-Goldman Sachs  partner and founder of Galaxy Digital, has said that he expects cryptocurrency to “flip next year” in an interviewed and published  by Financial Times (FT) Nov. 23. During the interview, Novogratz said that “this year has been challenging” for Galaxy Digital –  a company that he hopes will become “the Goldman Sachs of crypto” – adding that “it sucks to build a…

Her inner struggles and abandoned morning thoughts gradually awakens from their dormant state when the clock strikes 12. Just minutes into the midnight sky, the vicious battle to preserve her ever dimming light begins.

Thoughts she did not have the courage to face amidst the illusion of a pleasant day rose in unprecedented depths in her mind. The darkness of her  receding  confidence, her disintegrating esteem, and breaking faith manage to rob her slightest spark no matter how hard she clung on. 

4 am- blessings are counted, a God she half halfheartedly believes is summoned, and the meaningless men she begs for reassurance and attention has occurred. A temporary perseverance. She manages to barley light the unseeable path the insidious midnight thoughts commenced. The treacherous voyage ends with the crack of dawn - 6am. Every time she barely escapes, merely becoming a victor of her own dark views. 

To be a pessimist is to view everything negatively. To be hopeful means you "hope" everything will happen according to plan [in my case at least]. Lately, I feel like everything is going to hell if it isn't already there, but hopeful that it will change. This mindset, I would like to call pessimistically hopeful. I'm not sure how things are necessarily fucked up but I feel like there are.

I think me gaining weight has a lot to do with that. Unfortunately, I don't have enough self control between my hand which feeds me the food and my heart that knows I shouldn't eat it. I figure one of these days, I'll get fed up enough with fat pants and make an adjustment. I did it last Fall. Why can't I do it now? Last year I felt motivated. This year, I feel... I feel pessimistically hopeful.

Maybe it's because of my job. I have an associates so you would think I'd be utilizing that in my job, but I'm not. I got this job before I got my degree and I'm still in the same place. A bit stuck actually. Too scared to leave the job because I don't know if I'll find another one like this one and don't want to trade this bullshit for different bullshit. Would much rather have a better paying job but I don't think I'll get that doing part time.

Maybe it's him... I'm happy but I feel this constant nagging that he isn't, or he could be happier. I'm not sure what it is... I'd hate for him to be "settling" for me. That would make me feel awful.