#personal shi

im hoping hlvrai2 will change that cause i feel really shitty about it lowkey

thanks dude.

tagging @intricatecakes @thelittleblackfox and @nerdygaykitten and you. yes, you. you’re reading it, you’re tagged. boom, magic.

kahdvd so it's been liek,, 2 years now since my friend passed away and that's just like,,, idk it's really weird. i've made a lot of progress since then with coping and all and i've moved on a lot but like it's still crazy yk. like, it's been so long yet also it feels like no time has passed and it's just wild. two years ago today i was in california for a competition knowing that my friend was a state away literally on her death bed. we were back in town by the night time but she passed away in her sleep that night. the time thing is crazy bc all of that really doesn't seem like that long ago, maybe six months to a year. same with the week leading up to her death finding out she was dying. but at the same time the only reason i know what her face looks like is because i still have a picture of her, but even then most memories are blurry and i can't remember the sound of her voice all too well either. and just thinking about how long she's been gone, it feels like it's been forever. idk, shits wild

Sometimes I just feel like dying. Sometimes I feel like flying. Sometimes I feel like both, and sometimes, I feel empty as fuck.