#personal post again

God, it’s going to be like this till I leave, isn’t it? My dad wants me to go back home. Like really stay for several months. But if I don’t have a proper, real job by my birthday I’m going to implode and consider myself a failure. I need to figure this out. I need to figure it out by the end of the week. Preferably. I need to get my dual citizenship stuff sorted. I sent in an email to the Irish government again but I’m not sure it even went through because their form didn’t have any kind of confirmation window so if I don’t hear back by tomorrow I’m going to send it in again. I need to work out a cover letter that works for cold resume submissions. Sadly I can only apply to US companies till the above is sorted. For some reason I really want to go and hide away in northern europe suddenly. Maybe because it’s so goddamned hot and humid out here in Kansai. I’d like to spend a few years in a place that is way cooler all year round. I spent last birthday in Hokkaido and it was like living in a snow globe- every day was flurries, and nothing that ever truly stuck or caused problems. Just beautiful flurries every day. Go get coffee in the morning and watch the flurries outside. I could go for that forever I think. I’m rambling and I’ll go away now.

so i guess i'll eat 3 times a week then. honestly, what am i supposed to do?

fuck this