#personal blogs

I was trying my best not to lose my hope this whole month...

Today is my last theory paper for this end Sems. Now only practicals are left... took a very looong time to study all these and finish..

Mid sems are from Mondayyyy.

Trying my best currently but procrastination is still ahead of me...

A retired hoodrat and recovering D1 Crash Out.

Yes, that means I used to make questionable decisions at Olympic levels… and now I make slightly healthier questionable decisions with better skincare and a healing playlist in the background. Growth.

I became the soft, spicy healer I am today the same way most healers do: through trauma, delusion, stubbornness, and strictly out of spite.

Life said “here’s an obstacle course of childhood dysfunction, mental illness, and chronic pain,” and I said “bet, but make it character development.”

Mentally, I’m rocking a collector’s edition set:

• Borderline Personality Disorder (the deluxe emotional rollercoaster edition)

• Major Depressive Disorder (seasonal AND surprise drops)

• Panic Disorder (limited edition jumpscares)

• Anxiety (premium overthinking package)

• Complex PTSD (the classic)

• Mild Autism Spectrum flavor

• Minor OCD (sprinkles)

• And ADD without the hyperactivity because apparently my brain said, “Let’s be chaotic… but quietly.”

Physically? Baby, this body came with DLCs.

Spinal issues, a hip that hops with no music, migraines, complex pain syndrome, crunchy joints, gastrointestinal chaos, doctors on speed dial, a body that can’t regulate it’s own temperature…and a punch card at pain management and physical therapy like I’m earning reward points.

I’m also a mom of two teens — one who shares my calling card of psych diagnoses and physical battles (all different than mine - so THAT’S FUN). Every day is a wild ride in our home. Some would call it “the asylum.”

I prefer to call it THE GARDEN.

Because somehow, in all the chaos, we still grow here.

We laugh, we cry, we dissociate, we stretch, we cuss a little, we heal a lot.

We bloom sideways, crooked, stubbornly — but we bloom.

So welcome to my corner of the internet.

If you’ve ever survived life by humor, audacity, medical appointments, and vibes alone?

Baby, you’re already home.

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Yeahh... last one to gooooo

My last exam is tomorrow that too it's practical.... just wanna get over it and chill for my vacations 😁😁✨️.....

(But I do have to study for this one which I am not doing...)