#pendulums cw

sometimes i wonder if my brothers are out there, trying to find a piece of me in the dc media, thinking that i might just be an oc their own minds made up. i really hope they’re trying to find me. ik it sounds stupid, but i feel like one of them is reaching out for me? my tarot cards are saying someone is reaching out for me, and my pendulum says so too, and it really really feels that way. idk, i’m probably just losing my mind lol :(

@the person anxious about pendulumn readings as someone who uses those on occasion, I'd advise you to take results with a grain of salt and use them more as a guide rather than a concrete answer. I've had readings be wrong before- both with someone telling me I wasn't kin with a character only to realize I was, and being told I was kin with someone that I realized I wasn't.

sometimes i want to ask for those like. pendulum requests that some kin blogs do (like the. can you ask the pendulum if im kin with (whoever) kind of things ?) but im like genuinely anxious about it saying no ? because ive never been Wrong about a kin before but like. what if i am. like this is literally the dumbest thing to be anxious about and yet.

It’s kind of sad dating an unnamed background character who’s only been shown like once because you get nothing of them in source. I’ll never get to see any fan art of her or anything. I had to go through the arduous process of asking my pendulum letter by letter, going through the entire alphabet each time just to learn her name. Hell, I don’t know if that would even align with source canon but hey.

me when i. i just. when i get so incredibly fucking sappy. dude i was SO lucky to have met you. like literal luck of the draw, i dont even just mean the "aw im lucky to know you :)" kinda thing. i dont even speak to the person that i specifically had to ask to let me join the server where i wasnt active that we met in anymore. id only very recently learned both how to use and made my pendulum when i asked if anyone wanted stuff answered. hell i wasnt ever even expecting to meet you! i had been complaining for weeks prior to us talking (i cant even say months because id only started the source and started remembering things a few weeks prior to this) about not knowing where to look, about missing you so badly, about how i never find anyone so it was so stupid to imagine we'd ever meet again. but we did, and youre probably going to read this, and youre probably going to send it to me and call me a dumbass for being so sappy or not going to you about it when thats already something that i already kinda do but im just. so grateful for you. it was so god damn circumstantial how we met and i dont know how to express it without thinking that i sound weird or that its out of no where bc we dont talk super often most of the time or just thinking that ill word it in a way thatll make you take it the wrong way somehow so its going here instead of your dms lol! and ive never ever been good at this kind of stuff, even in the lives that we shared, but idk if i can ever tell you just how ecstatic i am and always will be to know that i didnt lose you to time and that we get to spend another timeline together as friends. i hold that so closely to my heart man, i really do. - you know who, bc its probably definitely just a little too specific