#pctyd

I have found a home,

Yet i have never been there

I have found a family

But have never felt there embrace

I have never seen your true smile or heard your laugh

Other than from miles apart 

I am loved 

I am accepted

And i may never see you 

One day

One day i will get to sacrifice a watermelon

One day

One day i will go to the sacred store

One day

One day i will go to instrument practice and lose some points

One day

One day i will find a family, see my family from more than a screen

One day

One day i will be where I belong

I hear the jingling in my head,

The sound of lanyards swinging

I hear the jester causing the court to laugh

The sound of joy no one can replicate

I hear the son making love to all

In a way more intimate than sex

I smell the liquid diabetes

Our sacred drink

Our holy water

And feel it so near,

Yet not yet

Is it on 

The tip of my tongue

The screams of sex and death

The lights being swung in the air

Oh great and mighty sphinx

Just wondering, any CTYers here? The PCTYD is real... 19.2 just ended but I seriously can't wait for next year 🤧🤧

And it’s beautiful, how every generation of scared, reckless teens make mistakes and fall in love, or maybe not, or maybe the way 39 generations of lost youth singing at the top of their lungs still echo in these walls is another sort of way to fall in love, another sort of family, how the bonds we make from string and duct tape are as real or realer than the ones written in blood from back home, how we forge found family from yesterday’s strangers, today’s siblings and lovers, how maybe this house is falling apart, but damnit, we’ll stay for the afterdance because this is where we’ve found the closest thing to a miracle that we’ve seen with our own eyes, felt with our own hands, heard with our own ears, and in this place, liminal space outside the rest of the world we, this generation lost in space, are Found

Hello! If you’re from CTY Lancaster 17.2 you may know me as the idiot who stood in the center of AI and begged you all to speak louder! It’s me, Ky, the local cryptid of the CTY position holders: Elusive jester/rainbow combo. 

I’m really happy that I got to know the people I did during my nevermore year, but I really wish I’d gotten to know even more people! if you even vaguely recall whomst the fuck I am, feel free to message me and tell me I’m an idiot, something you remember about me, or like, pimp your twitter handle or something. I don’t bite, regardless of how much I scream.