#patricsun

I’m never going to wear it, but I just had to have it. >_>

Nus you’re a king, thank you. Man if I knew Rain was in it I would’ve watched it before. I remember that movie being on Netflix hella long ago, I’ll have to check it out finally.

So in the past 10 ranked games I've played, I've experienced all of the woes associated with elo hell. (Please note that I do not believe in elo hell, and am just simply describing what other people complain to be in it.) AFK (4v5), uncooperative teammates, 0-20 feeding team, and just general overall mismatched games. I seriously experienced it all within a small 10 game sample. So what happened? I won them all. (The ones with woes at least.) Through this experience, I now better understood why people get stuck/complain about elo hell, and why people like me can climb out of it. It's all attitude. Attitude wins games just as much as it looses them. When you go in aggravated/stressed/have an overall negative attitude, you will significantly lower your chances of winning. Remember to take breaks, especially after a particularly stressful game. I play terribly when I'm nervous or whatever else. BELIEVE BELIEVE BELIEVE. A huge factor in win rate is determined by how often you surrender. I realize that surrendering will save you time, but really, how much? If you're surely going to lose, it may save you 10 minutes, or you can go for that chance at winning which would save you more time in your overall climb. The game where my team was 0-20, and I myself wasn't doing so hot, I had the choice of surrendering. Someone had /ff at 20 with 3 yes, 1 no, leaving the decision with me. I NEVER surrender. I know 99% of my friends would have in my situation, but I chose not to. One of my friends shared a similar story where she had voted yes, luckily she had two crazy fools who said no, they won, and my 0-20 game? We won. People LOVE throwing games. From bronze to diamond, everybody throws. I'm up a single kill? I must be able to 1v5. It happens to the best of us, and that cockiness especially shines in 4v5 situations, where the team of 5 is expecting a guaranteed win, resulting in a surprise loss. NEVER SURRENDER. In the reverse scenario, never get too cocky, always secure your win. DON'T RAGE AT YOUR TEAMMATES. I've lost games where raging at them resulted in their afk/our loss. One of my games we had a split pushing teemo, who didn't amount to much. (He managed to get a single outer turret in 30 minutes.) We had a team fight LITERALLY three feet below where he was split pushing. He didn't help us at all, and continued split pushing. One of my teammates politely asked him to join the next fight, his response, "SHUT UP. SO ANNOYING. GOD." This was the first time anyone had said anything to him. He diverged some attention from the enemy team, and this, despite feeding the other side, was better than him being afk. The second a single person went up to deal with him, I'd have us engage a team fight, realizing it was our best chance. We eventually won through this method. Sometimes you just have to play around an uncooperative player. Believe in yourself. Carry. You deserve to be higher? Then it means you should be dominating the competition. In a game before this batch of 10, I was in a game where I had 14 out of 14 of our team kills, and only 2 deaths out of our 30 or so team deaths. Despite this, I still blamed myself for not carrying harder. I decided the next game like it, I would at least double my score to guarantee victory. I had 29 kills the next game. Stop blaming others, and instead, concentrate that energy on improving yourself. You obviously need skill to do well, but realize that in a lot of cases, your attitude can make or break a game. I've thought about several of my friends being in my shoes during these games, and skill aside, they would most likely have lost by just simply giving up. There's way more, but it's so long already. SO GOOD LUCK IN RANKED, and by that I mean, CARRY HARD.

Last season in league, all of my friends were trying their hardest to reach gold. They were all grinding. Most had hundreds, and some even had over a thousand games under their belt. They had played all year, and still hadn't reached their goals. I had never taken ranked seriously, as my internet was always shotty, but after finally deciding to upgrade my connection, I decided to actually climb the ladder. I blew threw gold in 40 wins. I claimed this to be a grind. It wasn't. Up to this point, I thought grinding wasn't so bad, that it just required dedication. People would share stories about how terrible their grinding experience was, and I'd give out these long motivational speeches about how they should never give up, that as long as they persevere, they will climb. Everything I said was and still is completely true, it's just that I was telling people this without truly understand their frustration. I was telling people that I understood how they felt, because I had to go through it too, but I never truly did. I had never actually grinded The misery of playing everyday for almost a year, hundreds upon hundreds of games, to only move up a single division. The frustration that comes with failing your promotion series for the fifth time, and the terror that is getting demoted. I had never experienced any of those things. After upgrading my internet, I had not once been demoted, heck, I had never even lost a promotion series. I was never stuck. I never grinded, and yet I was telling people that I had gone through the grind, gone through what they were going through, and telling them that they just weren't trying hard enough. Today, I thought I had officially grinded in Hearthstone, I felt the misery of being stuck at a certain rank, and the gut wrenching terror that comes with a demotion. Hearthstone is a card game, so luck is half the game, meaning it's especially grind-y, and meaning unlike league, I couldn't just use my superior ability to climb the rankings instantly. I was forced to experience a true grind, and I gave up. The frustration was real. I then realized that I had been telling people it wasn't so bad, that they should never give up, and here I was, on the verge of tears (SHHH), and giving up. Very hypocritical Patric Sun. The sad part about all of this, is that soon after giving up, I realized that I hadn't grinded at all, it was just the tip of the grind. I found out that the person who is currently rank 1 Legend in BOTH the US, and EU, reached Legend in about 100 wins. So on average, it obviously took people far more games. People had broken 500 wins 10 ranks behind me. Me?... I was still under 90. I was likely going to reach Legend in well under 200 wins, FAR under the average, and yet I caved, claiming the grind was too difficult, that the frustration was too real. I had only tasted a sliver of the misery that is grinding, and already, I could not handle it. Hypocrisy at its finest. It's just something I thought was funny to think about. Sorry to everyone I I didn't sympathize with about the difficulty of the grind, Your fortitude is far greater than mine. I'm just used to winning games with minimal effort. Hahaha, I'M AN ASSHOLE.

My friend's girlfriend got a bunch of his friends to take shots/wish him a happy birthday for a montage video. How sweet! It's his birthday today, so extra happy birthday to him! (He doesn't use tumblr.) Anyways, here was mine. I don't take selfies or anything of that nature, so I figured I'd share for any followers who were curious. Extra squinty because of the sun, so I guess it isn't the best. Mini-story. I was on my way to the gym, and that single shot caused my face to flush. Ha.ha..ha... -_-

Sometimes I forget that I changed my name. I noticed it while checking out the new Ashe skin, and lol'd. I make myself smile.