I think I'm finally beginning to understand the different forms my desire takes in bed.
When I'm using my hands and my mouth, I want to take control and make my partner squirm with pleasure, to use my sensitive touch and high dextrous control to absolutely melt their brain. I want my partner to try and tell me what they want, and I'll listen if I can hear it, but if they're too blissed out to speak, it's "Huh, what was that?" as I intensify what I'm doing.
But when it comes to my dick, I want to be the focus of desire. I want to be needed, craved so bad, to be touched and worked with such care because I'm such a good girl. I'm so good, so kind, so patient and so loving, I want to be praised for how good I am at being a sensitive little plaything. And when I'm sufficiently worked up, I long to be used for their pleasure and ridden until they milk me of all the cum I have. My dick is not a tool I actively use, but one I want to receive pleasure and attention.
