My personal interpretation on kirbycaden (and caleb244 a bit) is someone who is very pathetic and powerless due to his own mentality. The Kirbycaden account wasn’t actually that active during the forum arcs (by the actual Kirbycaden), so I couldn’t possibly say whether or not Kirbycaden really had many friends during that time.
That led to me characterizing him with high barriers and a lack of friendships, I tied that into his zombie identity. If you were something everyone fear, then nobody would see you. If you have nobody, and everyone who attempted to get close, was seeking you out for business purposes, then it would be hard to trust anyone.
Caleb244 is known to be bitchy, known to be a dick. And I’m sure that bothered the shit out of Kirby when they first met prior to Choka. He was everything he didn’t want to be around.
Yet for Caleb, he didn’t mind being around Kirby. Caleb himself can probably relate to having a high barrier, due to the fact he thinks it’s every man for himself.
Despite them both having these trust issues, the way I view them reacting is very different.
Whilst caleb244 goes straight into aggression, Kirbycaden goes to sobbing before his anger.
Kirby trusted Choka, and I believe that was the first one he truly had let him “in”. She promised to be there for him, comforted him, played on all of his insecurities, and this caused to form some bond with Choka. Finally letting someone in.
(Fear on ao3, by patchesofcut)
So when Choka, and Vice versa caleb244, was revealed to be fake. I can imagine how he was shattered, very emotionally upset. Probably unable to get out of bed for weeks, whilst coming with terms that he still does love Choka, and vice versa towards Caleb, yet he still had to fight back.
Although instead of “fighting back” to make sure people understand the fact Kirbycaden been hacked, he did it more so he could gain some form of attention from Caleb. Because there’s truly no undoing the damage he did to his reputation, whether he got his accounts back or not, he’s pretty fucked.
And when Caleb244 didn’t give him the response he wanted, leading to a sense of sadness or even more anger. I tend to swing both ways for my works, if I do write. Whatever that’s my yap.
