#patchcast

Why I’m writing this, I don’t really know. I haven’t written down my thoughts lately and it all started to pile up. 

The funny thing now is that I feel like I’m in a good spot in life. I have a better job, I’ve reignited the flame of my passion, I have good friends...I’ve finally made peace with my issues with my parents. 

So I don’t know why I’m starting to realize that I don’t feel anything. 

I don’t. 

At first, I thought I was only numb towards the idea of dating someone because I honestly feel numb right now when it comes to that. How can I say so? There’s this guy who I like so much and we had an opportunity to work together and that could have been an opportunity to talk more and get to know him more, but I only reached out to him regarding work. Nothing else. And knowing myself, I would have used that opportunity. 

But lately, I’ve been so stuck. I feel like my mind is just all over the place and also trapped. 

I don’t even know what to say anymore. I think I’ll just sleep. 

godbless

and immediately my first liveblog post is about Gus