#para rambles

Maybe a little out of character but whatever, go my weird guy!!

Honestly, I feel like most Madness characters would just be.. in pain basically 24/7, especially later on, even if it’s not debilitating. Imagine dying and coming back to life even just a few times, especially in gruesome ways where you’d probably have to be sewn back together. I mean, I think about things like torn muscles and damaged nerves too, even if grunt anatomy isn’t the same as people, they still probably got those things theoretically.

Don’t even get me started on the possible impacts of dissonance exposure, excluding mental state, bc that one’s pretty obvious. Those would be more headcanon territory I think, bc I think of dissonance more as like an element on a periodic table for some reason, and boy do I love studying the impacts of element exposure!

Idk, hope this makes sense, I’m sleeby!!(

Yup yup

She wants off Riverstar’s Wild Ride. And can she unsee the horrors, while she’s at it?

I haven’t drawn cats in a good while, so she may look a bit scuffed, but oooh i had a fun time designing her. I took some inspiration for the face markings from @fishycatdesigns, and the body stripe wiggles are kinda supposed to look like water ripples! No idea if it came across at all, but the intent’s in there somewhere!!

Now lets talk about those stitches because Oh My I’ve been thinking about them way more than any normal person should. The text never specifies if they are the kind that kinda dissolves(?) on their own, and cats continue to mention them way after the injuries are healed, so I’m inclined to think that they are permanent. Babygirl is just stuck with weird twoleg stuff in her neck.

This actually makes me feel so relieved bc another reason why I’m always hesitant to post pregnant Shadow is I’m worried that it can be seen as disrespectful or that if it might be used for fetishization purposes which isn’t really what I’d like my art to be associated with.

I don’t want to kink shame anyone, as an agender aroace person who does not experience any romantic or sexual desire whatsoever (i think? still learning about the different types of experiences within the aroace spectrum) I feel that I am literally the least qualified to talk about the morality behind mpreg as a kink/fetish.

With all that in mind, I do wanna say that I wish there was more transgender pregnancy representation that wasn’t just fetish. Like just googling “pregnancy symptoms” will give you a wide range of experiences, but when I was trying to look into if there were unique ways that pregnancy can effect trans men, it took a lot of digging so either I’m just stupid and can’t search things on the internet very well or there really isn’t a lot of representation of trans pregnancies.

Although I did recently learn that in the r/pregnancy subreddit, FTM does not in fact mean “Female to Male” and is actually just “First Time Mom” which makes a lot of sense bc for awhile I thought half of the subreddit were just trans guys. Then I discovered there is literally a subreddit r/seahorse_dads and so I spent awhile just reading a bunch of posts in there.

Anyway I’m fine just existing in my own space with sonadow family fluff, but when I share it I get all nervous bc mpreg is cringefail or whatever and I don’t even know if it’s cringe for being cringe or if it’s cringe bc it’s a fetish. Just know that whenever I post any art of any kind, I try to think as little as possible about how people will interpret my drawings, bc at the end of the day I just drew it because it made me happy and thinking about sonadow fluff gives me warm and fuzzy butterflies that I think people are supposed feel when they’re in love but I’ve never experienced that for another person in my entire life and I don’t think I’ll be able to. So thinking about and drawing sonadow is probably the closest I’ll get to that feeling.

And it makes me even more happy when people say they genuinely connected with my art bc then I know that the warm and fuzzy butterflies feeling got through, and I’m just really glad we can all get our little serotonin boost from these stupid gay hedgehogs.

No you’re all good this isn’t an awkward question at all! Actually this is kind of a fun ask to answer bc I wanna know if any other people have similar experiences to how I draw lol.

First off, wanna say that there’s a one specific song I’ve listened to religiously for the past 3 years, and it's also the song I listen to most often while drawing sonadow. I feel like it’s encompasses almost the entire range of human emotion while somehow also being able to match exactly to any single specific emotion on that range.

Typing this out now my feelings and experiences with the song might be a little biased because it’s part of the OST for Signalis (which is such an underrated game and especially the soundtrack), but I feel like even if you haven’t played the game it can still give you this melancholic atmosphere. But really it feels like….I feel like there are words to describe what i’m trying to say but I can’t think of any other than like, … an “ethereal comfort”.

Okay sorry about that ramble I just really wanted to give you some context and also I need more people to play Signalis. But anyway to answer your question:

My “Creative” Process: featuring symptoms of autism and insomnia

I like that people use words like “soft”, “intimate”, “tender” in the replies and stuff of my art because (while that is the intention behind a lot of my art) it makes me think about the actual process that took place while I was drawing and if that in anyway impacts the viewer interpretation.