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DOING MORE RAILROAD QUESTS!! | Fallout 4 - Part 22

If I must be undone by you, then may you be undone by me.

If I must wake every morning with your name lodged beneath my ribs,

then may you choke on mine in every silence.

You have lived in me longer than I’ve had a name for you.

And now that I know, now that it blooms too fast, too fierce,

I cannot bear it.

So take this curse instead.

let me plague you as you plague me.

I hope my absence burns your tongue

each time you press your mouth to hers.

That you wonder, helpless, what I taste like,

and find no sweetness in her lips because of it.

I hope my shadow trembles in your hands

each time you reach for her skin.

That you are tormented with questions

what sound would I make,

what expression would shatter across my face,

if it were me beneath your touch

My breath against your skin

May I ruin you.

May I follow you into every bed you will ever enter,

every body you will ever hold,

not as comfort, not as warmth

but as hunger,

as ache,

as the endless wondering that nothing will quiet.

Good.

Because I did not ask for this fire,

but now that it consumes me,

I will not burn alone.

I’ve been trying to do a few sketches idea in honor of Inktober, and I was really happy with this one I made of P.A.M :) I’ve been doing prompts from the Actually Infected 2024 challenge, and the second prompt was “Corrupted File”, and of course I wanted to draw my evil Pokémon virtual assistant.

A few extremely rough sketches of some old designs (mostly robots) from an old sci-fi story idea of mine I did as a quick little drawing exercise (or something I guess); drew 'em from memory and couldn't remember what some of them looked like, so some look better than others (you can probably gauge which ones I remembered better).

Pictured: A diagram for the P.A.M. Research Project, showcasing a variety of unique robot designs for P.A.M.

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Carrington: I actually like him. I think they tried to do his kind of character several times in the game and he’s the only success. Yeah, he’s still rude to you, but it’s because he’s stressed and worn thin, not just because he’s an ass. And he actually knows how to show a little bit of respect.

Deacon: I’m not a fan of his backstory for several reasons, but he’s great besides that. Literally the only person who is truly neutral on stealing, which is nice.

Desdemona: I actually quite like her, especially since she’s one of the very, very few who ask about Shaun when you return from the Institute. I think she has a lot of room to grow as a leader, but I think she’s capable of doing so.

Drummer Boy: You don’t get to interact with him enough for me to have an actual opinion, though I do like him from the little bit we get. I know some people think he’s a little annoying, but I don’t since he just directs you to the quest givers, and doesn’t give you them himself. He’s also weirdly attractive?

Glory: I love her. I lover her personality and attitude. She’s like the perfect badass. Her death did feel unnecessary to me though, and I don’t like how everyone acts like she’s dead if you ultimately side with the Minutemen.

P.A.M.: Long story short, perfection. I would die for P.A.M.