A bit of a random post |Dec. 9, 2017
It’s snowing today. I took my five week old puppy, Lilly, outside to see snow for the first time. A small, yet beautiful, snowflake fell on top of her head. It was the most precious thing I have ever seen. I wish I would have gotten a picture or two of us playing in the snow together, but I didn’t.
Why? Because I hate my body. My body is HUGE and disgusting. I wish my excuse for it could have been that I didn’t have anyone to take a picture of us or something like that. But my body is just so disgusting that I refused to let anyone take a full body picture of me.
It’s ridiculous. I shouldn’t hate my body so much that I refuse to let others take pictures of me. I want to love my body, but being morbidly obese I can’t love my body. Everything about my body is gross and I need to change it. I’m going to change it. I’m going to one day love myself.
I’m going to take care of myself and lose weight. I am going to love myself one day.