I swear I’m trying to shut up
I wish I knew how to only speak when my words are more beautiful than the silence but I can’t seem to stop myself from trying to fill in the space between us with all of the thoughts going on inside my head. Too many things lurk in the silence for me to stop mumbling because I want to keep my head safe from all my insecurities that the deafening quiet brings out of me time and time again.
Turns out talking doesn’t always heal you and it just adds more noise pollution to this world already filled with empty promises and superfluous words. I say far too much, I overshare and I can’t seem to stop the stream of words that leaves my mouth. My lips move too quickly for me to be able to keep up and I cannot imagine I am good company when I say nothing of value but I need you to know that what is left unsaid is exactly what I wish you could hear.
