#orphan.

Klein Zage - “Absolutely”

orphan. "Don't Say Goodbye"

I've come to terms that my mother and I will never see eye to eye on anything. And I've practically accepted the fact that she will never hate me, but she sure as hell will never like me, that's for sure. I have a strong belief that she loves me because I'm her daughter and she forces herself to love me because it's the better thing to do. 

Just like she says, "I only yell at you and tell you these things because I love you. Nobody else will ever tell you how ugly you are. And nobody else will tell you what a mistake you've made." My mom loves me.

Translation interpreted by me: "You're ugly, and nobody loves you." andddd, "You fuck up everything. As usual."

Maybe I'm young and hurt because I have emotions, but damn, I can't lie and say pulling pins, needles, and knives never hurt my ego.

I honestly can't wait for the day that I hopefully actually become successful and leave and become something worthy.

I can't wait to just come back to Lubbock, knock on my parents door and tell them, "Mom, Dad, you don't have to worry anymore. I'll take care of everything from now on."