#ordersarenotoptional

same it sucks so bad

Don't be your Four is great. Though I do know the feeling. I feel like I'm ruining Eric. I also know how the single ship thing is. I did it for a long time as well

He couldn’t stand to hear Tris complain about losing her parents one more time. She wasn’t the only one that had ever seen her parents die a violent death, and he was sick of hearing about it. “Will you shut up? I lost my parents as a child, I know what it’s like to see them die right in front of you. My dad was sick and my mom killed herself once he was gone, she never cared much about me. But having to find her hanging in the bathroom is not exactly the thing a 10 year old want to do, whether he likes his parents or not” Eric said glaring at her. “I get it, it hurts, you want it to end but it won’t. You have to suck it up and fucking fight it like the rest of us” Why he had chosen to tell her the story very few people knew he didn’t know. Maybe he believed it would make her shut up or maybe he was just sick of keeping it a secret after all these years.

                       She flinched initially at his words, unable to meet his gaze.                       Tris wasn’t used to this feeling, and by his admission, he was.                   Whatever -- He wasn’t like her; he didn’t feel as strongly as she did.

                                            ❝ The difference is my parents cared. ❞

                      The words were choked out without her meaning for them to be,                       and she looked away quickly once they were suspended between                       them. Maybe she felt pity for him, maybe she didn’t. But he had no                       right to make her feel worse for being upset over getting her parents                       killed. Her fists clenched at her sides. 

                                           ❝ They’re dead because of me. Not because                                             they chose to leave, like yours did. Shut up. ❞

                      And then she took a shaky breath, blue eyes finally meeting his with                       tears shining in them.