#orange dr

jarona!

I promise to change If the wind says it is okay I promise to grow if you are someone I know longer know I promise to laugh If my body allows me I promise to sprint if the sand around me should spin I’ll follow it To the depths Of this Where you stand By the car Waiting for me I promise I cried Or I shook myself as I tried. I promise it hurt There’s a million scuffs marks on my heart’s t-shrit. I promise the lights Are the best way to say goodbye I promise I’ll go There’s no other thing I currently know Collapsed in snow How our bodies wouldn’t glow Decidedly so I’ll come home To a place I have never Been shown. 3.two dollar weekend 04:15lyrics I hate driving But every mile away from you felt good And I finally started smiling Without waiting for you to tell me that I could California sunshine Is as constant and as toxic as advertised As I’m sliding Through the hills everyone said I’d always climb. And I need to hate you Spout the words from a megaphone outside. But my heart’s too infinite And the damn thing’s made of twine. I don’t know if we Will be congealed again as friends. Or if we will Speak just once more as the earth Descends. Two bad options For this imaginary weekend Two more dollars You will never spend. Whole days with a dearth of you Are devastatingly great and dim. I’m learning now What I looked like the first time I was a “him.” If I knew Who was next in line to hold my hand. I’d stop breathing Do a clumsy little cartwheel in the sand You'll never understand 4.mild change 02:03 I don’t know what the future molds But I know it don’t hold you I don’t know where the people roam But I know they don’t go with you. Not with you. The big coast is full of used up gold And candy-coated truth. Rest my head in oblivion Because the heart’s spraypainted blue Crystal blue. Little dances on the kitchen tile Long ago but they look like new. She dipped her hands into mild change But shook as I followed through That won’t do. We all left something else before Deciding on this tree. The splinters in my knee will heal But your gaze still hurts today It won’t stay. 5.those sneakers have souls 02:44 Is it harsh if I say I’m glad I didn’t have to stay I’m lucky that I vanished You deserve frozen lakes. Do you really feel pain With another rag for the shame Wiping the spot where your waitress feet Ached and fell down the drain. It’s hard to admit I love the sun When it used to scratch underneath my gums There’s an end that we both started from It just took us a while to learn how to run. I’m green as I breath But not as I love Sticky notes don’t cover enough. I’m living our dream Those were your words But anything shared is anything that hurts We stood outside of the diner And joked at you working there Now you’re pouring my coffee As I just stare. I stood on those steps while the metal box sang The moon wasn’t cold then but buzzed when it rang I held your coat for 48 months I reread the paragraph Because I had rushed. And was that lifetime with you Scribbled onto your shoes If so those sneakers have souls Aglow in the dining room. 6.bitters on the side 04:10 It doesn’t get easier when you squeeze in one more week Defined you when we met and I can’t edit without a drink Forgetting vocals on the track is sometimes sweet Bitters on the side A dish for you and me. In Santa Monica I’m a stranger and aloof Except in a past life there’s sand lodged in my shoes I really did grow tired every time I pushed snooze The dreams ubiquitous The notebooks lacking news. There’s no dichotomy my brain can’t gnash apart Like the thousand plus miles between you and my heart There’s a life somewhere people never start There’s no reset button But there are spare parts. I slip in deeper everytime you’re on the prowl And new friends don’t need SparkNotes on me now But it seems what I’m still best at Is piecing words most piercing When I know you’ll be hearing me out Hear me out. Missing people is odd from this view I don’t want to climb back down cause this tree is brand new This sapling structure is as strong as super glue Industry makes a noise, the sobbing showers stew. It’s permissible that you’d be so confused But I can’t reciprocate nebulous love tunes In here, it’s crystal clear, and I know all the words So if you’re mumbling you can leave without a word. 7.now i know 02:18 You’re really good at being mean I just realized this on a repeat viewing Of all the frozen frames where I told myself it was me Blame was a tattoo but only everyone else could see. Emma watched every single bite And couldn’t say a thing till tonight she drew in golden marker in dying brick “we’re all just here because you make us fucking sick” You don’t have it anymore You’re not allowed another spore Thimbles of dissonance are cognitatively sore You don’t have it anymore No one could tell me I loved you so much That no one would tell me I hate you so much That now I know 8.diverted grins 03:28 Do you ever see me on your way up? Do you ever see me on your way down? Do you ever see me on your days off? Did you ever know a day to frown? Stars on rollerskates are worn out The driver’s sleeping on his crime And no one knows where I’ve really been On a catapult through time. People glance at me to inquire Asking questions with ennui Like how is it this kid is trusting Who the fuck made him this way? I want love the way they want stuff Price labels making their wrists weak I want love from every single Chunk of broken asphalt in the street. I’ll make a joke if it will warm me And protect myself with diverted grins I’ll pretend I don’t need anything The edges fraying on my fins Do you ever see me on your way up? Do you ever see me on your way down? Do you ever see me on your days off? Did you ever know a day to frown?