#opendiary

[The Invisible]

I guess it is a blessing

To own up little space,

For even when I disappear

My absence is not felt;

I've never owned a character

Solely by just myself,

For I have shared identities

Always with someone else;

I may be a daughter

But I'm not the only one;

I'm not even the most special

Nor am I the favorite one;

I may be a sister

But I'm not the only one;

And whatever I can do

Someone else could do it,

even better than I do;

I may be a friend

But I'm not the only one,

I'm not even the most remembered

See? I don't even get greeting cards;

And let's not even talk about

Being someone's special one,

Because, really,

I don't have anyone;

To anyone,

I am never number one;

To everyone,

I am but a part of one;

In this world

I take only little space,

In someone's life

I share but a tiny spare;

I am an existence

That is never whole,

And even as we speak

I keep getting unfull;

So even when I disappear

I won't be such a loss,

Because even if I will be missed

Good to be back here. I’m glad that tumblr still existing even though we already have different kind of platform in social media. 

So how am I? How’s adulting?

The last time I post here is way back 2015. I am just a teenager back then and newly college graduate and I guess still enjoying life even though I don’t have enough money with me? Haha

Time flies so fast! I can’t imagine its already 2022, many things have changed, we are growing older, and we are too busy to chase our dreams and to deal with our life when it comes to our career, finances, family matter and etc.

How I wish I knew back then that life is hard it would be better if I enjoy life to the fullest and do things what I really want.

To myself this coming 2023, I hope you become happy always and stay healthy at all times together with my family. I hope you achieve your dreams, and the life that you dreamed of and lessen things that makes you worry. 

My Open Diary Entry circa