@aigonakru asked : ❝ why do you let me close when you’re always driving everyone else away? ❞ ( to blodreina!octavia ?? from lincoln ) / YOU CAN KILL ME BUT DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH THEM PROMPTS / accepting
blodreina’s back is turned on him, fingers pinching at the bridge of her nose as her head throbbed louder. the leader’s body has been deprived of sleep since she’d held a gun to her people two days prior. octavia didn’t want to do it. though abby’s said it’s the only way that they’ll survive this year. the emotional toll that evening brought had been enough to have the leader begging for the release that would come once her eyes shut. but it hasn’t happened yet. the screams of the guilty?? innocent?? have drowned out all other thoughts, keeping her alert and unable to drift off. it’s why she’d sent for lincoln.
she needs him. keeps him close because if she were to push lincoln away like all the rest, if she were to really listen to gaia’s teaching’s about love : octavia will die. each day they’re under the ground, she gets closer and closer to merging entirely with the fierce blood queen but his presence reminds her of the girl who onced loved watching butterflies dance. finally, she turns to him, hollow eyes lifting to his. “ don’t you know? ” there’s a tenderness in her tone rarely present, a moment of trying to access those emotions she’s never been very good at handling. it’s all she has. the only three worlds she can find in a time of comfort but even then...how comforting is it really to lincoln? to know that the person who cared about him was more monster than human. more blodreina than octavia.
