#oofff

A knot formed instantly in his stomach. Not because he didn't want to...be with Stolas. But because...

Well, there were countless reasons. His mind rushed back to past relationships. Or arrangements, really. Had there ever been a committed one? How was he going to explain this?

"I.... uh....Well, you know, Stols, I uh...." he bit the bullet and just said it. "Never really had one of those types of...uh, relationships. I've always, uh-- been expected to be able to perform whenever someone asks me to, inside and outside of a..." he made a gesture to try to indicate a relationship. But it probably came out lewdly "Why? Does it bother you to think about me diddling with other people? I guess I could try to... not do that. It's not like that's been happening or anything. Or that I've been, you know- wanting to. I mean uh... Other people don't-- you know, they aren't..." Shit, he was bad at this. "They don't do it for me is what I'm saying. But..."

How was he supposed to explain that he was terrible at saying 'no' when people asked for sex?

Didn't that make him sound like...

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Forgetting about my wife for a second cus this dude looks deranged AND I LOVE IT

Meghan and Harry. That could be a four volume set.

I thought of doing some bullet point thing on them and never did. Suffice it to say that I find them boring beyond repair. He's actually more interesting than her, imo.

I used to watch Suits. I stopped watching Suits because they increased her presence on the show, and it was always some sex thing with her. IMO, she destroyed the theme and purpose of the show. When I heard Harry was dating her, I thought well there go the BRF because I figured he couldn't possibly choose anyone worse than her. Destroy a show, destroy a family. Destruction is thy name. I hadn't anticipated just how bad bad could get.

That should give you my mind set on the one.

Harry, I always thought was an unappealing mess with a hard mean streak. I thought he was obnoxious as a kid. He needs therapy and caregivers for the rest of his life. There's been far too much excusing/covering for him, too much alcohol, too many drugs that it hasn't permanently altered his state of mind. He has severe mommy issues, scued role model problems, and daily image of himself fixations. He's a bully and definitely an abuser. People like him can play act at being quite charming and social. The mask drops the second he's out of range. His family did a brilliant job of enabling him.

Meghan, imo, is a demanding, nonstop malignant narcissist with the potential to cross the line into some sinister if pushed far enough. She is grandiose in all she does and adores beige everything. She's entirely predictable with a stunning rinse and repeat lifestyle. Behind the scenes I would imagine her to be addicted to millions of rules that are subject to change at her whim. I would think wastes time with mintuiae would be her calling card along with an inability to make a decision.

In close, regular proximity to either of them, I would be fearful of my sanity. Their house must be pure chaos.