#onthepath

I have!! That’s another great one, I highly recommend it to everyone. Erik Larson is such an engaging author, I’d also recommend Thunderstruck.

Ok the only reason these be new facts to me is because I’m new to the fandom but I’ve know this since a while ago.

Hey there Tumblr verse. Rik here.

Here’s the thing. I have been having issues lately. And I have been internalizing them at all times. It has been easier to lie to people then tell them the true feelings and to a point where I don’t even know the truth anymore. Sometimes I forget who I am. Who am I supposed to be?  Am I me, the flawed individual to has nothing sorted out.  Or the version of me in those stories? I forget get confused. Many a times, I find myself even thinking as them, as the people of my stories. Is it good, is it bad I don’t know. It has helped in several situations where telling the truth seemed impossible. Rather be a liar than an outsider till it isn’t hurting anyone right. But that’s a lie, a straight up delusion that I have created for myself in order to stay sane. The truth is, it is hurting everyone. The people around me, the people whom I care but mostly me. So I’m writing this to stop. To stop hurting me. To create a platform for myself, for the person, whom I see in the mirror in the morning that is not the norm. Someone with flaws and insecurities. Not more or less than any other Tumblr user. But not any less important. To create a platform where I can be me and be critical of myself to learn from everyday life. To be grateful to all I have and what I have achieved today. To be a better version every day. To stop being a pushover, a self-critical jerk and to some degree, a sociopath.

So when all to be said is written, let the games begin.

What I’m grateful for.

The house where I live, the laptop on which I’m typing and the food I’m about to eat.

The step I took today.

Having 25 minutes of courage to type and upload this.

Good day Tumblr,