I too was diagnosed with Dyscalulia, and ADHD, however as much as i love my mother she decided that she new more than the doctor because she works with ESE students, that i needed to try harder, and even tho i qualified for the additional help and time for class stuff. She refused. I struggled, panicked, and cried often in my math classes because i just couldn't understand it without the additional help. My aunt payed for a private tutor, but my mother canceled it. I haven't been able to forgive her for deciding that i was just being lazy and uninterested in the topic and leaving me to flounder for most of my schooling. However she is my mother who taught me how to be me. But anyways this was really just a vent about my experience with Dyscalculia. I don't meet other who have it as well, so don-t mind me.
I am so sorry that you've had to go through these things. I definitely understand the feeling of 'this is my parent who raised me' and the responsibility and obligation that can come with it, but if you'll pardon me for being forward, I think it's always important to say this much, too: she may be your mother, but that doesn't give her the right to have treated you in this way or to have disregarded your feelings.
You are absolutely allowed to feel angry and hurt over it, and you are in no way obligated to forgive her. And, feeling this way does not make you a bad person or ungrateful child. You're a human being, and both now as an adult and back then as a child, you deserve to be treated with the respect and understanding that all people have the right to.
Thank you for feeling comfortable reaching out to vent, and I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with you or how you feel about all this. There are people out there who understand your struggle, and you are most certainly loved and supported just as you are!
Know that I, too, am sending you love and support! I hope that the rest of your day/evening treats you well. 💗