Alright, fuck me, but I love her so much. But sheโs such a quiet and introverted person. Iโm super boisterous and loud with how I love someone. I could hold them all day, just sit with them, give them whatever it is I physically could that would make them happy. But thatโs not what she needs. she need space, quiet, and to be left alone often. I am completely opposite to this, and so I feel like I canโt show her how much I love her because of this. Like sheโll absolutely hate me if I try to show her how much I love her, if I tell her, or try to do anything. And I donโt know what to do. Sheโs more than I could ever ask for, and I want to do everything I can for her. So Iโm going to have to learn to hold back and give her space. Just let her think things out. But I donโt know how to do that very well. I stress and become incredibly anxious, like every time maybe itโs the last time. Maybe sheโs gonna call back and say sheโs done. Fuck I donโt know what to do but as she asks. So Iโm just going to stay quiet, and wait for her. But aw hell it sure tears at me. And I donโt know what to do. What if she chooses someone else? I wish not but canโt stop her if she does.
