Alright, fuck me, but I love her so much. But sheβs such a quiet and introverted person. Iβm super boisterous and loud with how I love someone. I could hold them all day, just sit with them, give them whatever it is I physically could that would make them happy. But thatβs not what she needs. she need space, quiet, and to be left alone often. I am completely opposite to this, and so I feel like I canβt show her how much I love her because of this. Like sheβll absolutely hate me if I try to show her how much I love her, if I tell her, or try to do anything. And I donβt know what to do. Sheβs more than I could ever ask for, and I want to do everything I can for her. So Iβm going to have to learn to hold back and give her space. Just let her think things out. But I donβt know how to do that very well. I stress and become incredibly anxious, like every time maybe itβs the last time. Maybe sheβs gonna call back and say sheβs done. Fuck I donβt know what to do but as she asks. So Iβm just going to stay quiet, and wait for her. But aw hell it sure tears at me. And I donβt know what to do. What if she chooses someone else? I wish not but canβt stop her if she does.
