Extroverted

I really don't. My mom doesn't want to talk at all because I haven't been real close with the family lately. I don't know I'm just real tired. We're moving to a place I hate with a passion, I don't really have any friends to just hang with or even be friends with, my girlfriend is giving me the cold shoulder and I don't know why. So no, I'm not really up to being with family. I'd much rather just sit in my room, and be quiet. We're moving to a house that's not very big and I'll be sharing a small room with my brother... So I won't have privacy or really any time to just be alone. I just want to enjoy what I have for now. Im sorry I'm spending so much time in my room and not talking much. I'm just sorta sad and lost at the moment. No one knows that, but that's ok. Cause I'll put back on my happy face for everyone tomorrow.

Alright, fuck me, but I love her so much. But she’s such a quiet and introverted person. I’m super boisterous and loud with how I love someone. I could hold them all day, just sit with them, give them whatever it is I physically could that would make them happy. But that’s not what she needs. she need space, quiet, and to be left alone often. I am completely opposite to this, and so I feel like I can’t show her how much I love her because of this. Like she’ll absolutely hate me if I try to show her how much I love her, if I tell her, or try to do anything. And I don’t know what to do. She’s more than I could ever ask for, and I want to do everything I can for her. So I’m going to have to learn to hold back and give her space. Just let her think things out. But I don’t know how to do that very well. I stress and become incredibly anxious, like every time maybe it’s the last time. Maybe she’s gonna call back and say she’s done. Fuck I don’t know what to do but as she asks. So I’m just going to stay quiet, and wait for her. But aw hell it sure tears at me. And I don’t know what to do. What if she chooses someone else? I wish not but can’t stop her if she does.