#olderftm

Hi! I'm Jean, nice to meet you. In a month from today, November 24, I will turn 35. Since my birthday #34 I decided to embrace my true self, that I'm a transgender man.

I tried living my life as a girl/woman but last year since August 2016 the wheels inside me started turning. It wasn't the first time though, as I had already had cycles of some type of depression every two or three years for over ten years. I take it as my soul was trying to tell me something but I did not know how to listen to it and it just was not the right moment.

Already a year has passed since everything started moving and I'm glad to say that my closest friends, my online acquaintences, my now ex-husband and my direct family, all know about me being a FTM and they have accepted it. If totally or not, I will never know that, but they have not rejected me, which is what matters. I've been quite lucky with this, won't deny it.

Yesterday the countdown for my first FTM surgery has started. I have several issues to work on, specially my procrastination nature that has brought me until these moment with not even half of what I wanted to accomplish.

I'm making this blog for me to remember this experience. My way of feeling and thinking before my new formal life. Somewhat to keep me accountable. I will post both the high and lows.

Feel free to contact me if you have any questions.

Note: English is not ny mother language, Spanish is. So please pardon my mistakes.