Sep 6, 2024
It's still raining. Why is it still raining? I did what I was supposed to. This isn't fair.
I was host. Then I wasn't. Now I am co-host, I have a place in the system now. I should be happy right? So why is it still raining.
My skin is so dry and uncared for. I have acne from stress, and large bags under my eyes. I haven't worn makeup in a long time.
I look at photos from a year ago, they make me smile and then frown. I looked so cool back then, so different from now. I feel so sad, like I missed out on the good times. I wish I could have been there.
It's still raining. The rain just won't stop. Maybe it is superficial but the thought won't leave my mind. I'm so ugly now GOD I'm so ugly now.
