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Does anyone else with a dissociative disorder just like to sit in their dissociation when they’re not in any active danger?

Like if I start dissociating but I’m physically safe and it’s not making me uncomfortable or putting anyone at risk, I like to just sit there and allow it to happen. It’s a coping mechanism for a reason, and I’m coping with something, so I think I should just let it be as long as it’s not interfering with anything at the moment.

Obviously I try to ground myself if it starts to happen at work or anywhere but the comfort and safety of my own home, but when nothing is at stake, I struggle to see a reason to force myself to be present if my brain decided I didn’t need to be.

#did system #did #actually did #endos dni #did osdd #anti endo #nico speaks #theo posts #dissociation #actually dissociative

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The amount of people who are unaware that blackouts are not that common - even for full DID systems - especially out of a specific situation; and as a result minimalize their own very much problematic amnesia, or apologize before they complain about their own amnesia, is geniunely saddening. Regardless of how many people black out or not, if it's disrupting your daily life on a regular basis YES you have amnesia.

#actually cdd #actually did #anti endo #endos dni #did system #did #did osdd #theo posts

syscultureis

System culture is packing for a trip but not know which of you will want to be out for it, which makes figuring out which clothes to bring rather complicated and not great for packing light.

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syscultureis

Creative system culture is realizing the OCs you made with elaborate trauma for "no reason" actually had your trauma, you just didn't know it yet.

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spacetransportationsystem

endos grooming young systems to think they dont have trauma because they split an alter without major trauma happening right beforehand despite not needing significant trauma to split once youve developed a cdd

refusing to let you process trauma resulting in a strained mental health and extra roadblocks to recovery is dangerous especially in younger people. endos arent harmless. stop saying they are. endo neutral is also ableist

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Sysculture is splitting two new gatekeepers because people won’t stop digging into trauma memories

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How many fictives/alters do you have, and do they have any longevity?

Me and my headmate have been around for over a decade and are cemented into the roles and forms we have. There's only two of us, myself a Dib, and Zim. I'm curious if that's abnormal.

It's weird being an adult and still having this going on. Not weird bad, but weird isolating, if that makes sense.

Hope you're having a decent one,

M.M

Hiiiii!! Um, I don't really wanna share how many alters we have due to personal reasons, but, yes. All of our alters have longevity. Even if they don't front often, they're still in the background doing their jobs and keeping us as afloat as they can.

We're an adult as well, and I'll admit, since we were diagnosed with DID at 15, we kind of thought we'd be 'better' by now, but we're still 'sick' (for lack of better terms). So we understand a bit, but it's also all we've known our whole life, so we can't exactly say that it's weird, as final fusion would be weirder for us, so we're working towards functional multiplicity instead. It's slow-going, but we'll get there ^^ and we hope you can get to where you're happiest, too!

Also, don't worry. It's more common to have a lower headcount than a larger one, and it's not unheard of to have an only fictive system (seeing as it's always possible that your brain latched onto those characters when you were younger and identified that they'd be the most useful to your specific situation)

#endos dni #did system #did #actually did #did osdd #anti endo #minny.txt

writing-prompt-s

A mind controlling villain just dropped dead when they tried to controll you. As it turns out, you're basically a psychic landmine.

#me when i have DID and schizoeffective bipolar type 2 and -#minny.txt

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syscultureis

Sys culture is getting into new media and praying it doesn’t become a comfort media (it’s Hetalia, if we introject from this it’s so over.)

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#[laughs in an entire Nordics from Hetalia subsys]#kill us #endos dni

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sys culture is hating your mother because of what she did to you but also missing your mama so bad you cant help but cry like a little kid

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anti-willo-gricko

I am not yours to pity. My trauma doesn’t make you allowed to pity me.

envious-fox

Normalize accepting you're wrong about having DID.

Normalize accepting it might be a different disorder.

Normalize not calling people who were wrong with their suspicions fakers.

It's okay to suspect a disorder and turn out to be wrong. That's what research, suspecting, and getting professional help is for.

syscultureis

sysculture is finding out that your "dead" alters(it was the only word we had to describe it) were dormant or fused and the "dead body" we saw in innerworld was our way of coping with the grief we felt as individual alters. [ex: we had an alters 'brother' 'die' in a fire in innerworld. in reality, he went dormant because we couldn't handle the memories he held so he had to go dormant a long time ago]

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#we have had an alters sister die in a fire as a dormancy metaphor too

hc-did-culture-is

hc did culture is not being allowed to write anything even anonymously here due to silence programming ..

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#thats what its called?#tw programming mention

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And no, I'm not being intolerant, you're being a shitwit.

syscultureis

syscultureis getting gaslit by people who know you have DID

"Well you let me do XYZ before, but you forgot since it was another alter."

no the fuck i didn't

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#thats why we're SUPER careful with whowe tell #endos dni

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