#old!sam

“Sam, you’re carrying me home, I threw my back out again’

“Think maybe we’re getting too old for this Dean?’

There he was, safe and sound, bones old and creaking, and he went to the garage to sit in the car. The car he and his brother spent lifetimes in. Where they were raised, where they fought, where they made up, where they held evil at bay.

He has to crouch and settle into the seat slowly, as if his knees and back were aching from age. He settles in and looks beside him, a little nod as if he saw his youngers self in the passenger seat, or maybe saw Dean on the rare occasions he’d let Sam drive.

He then looks ahead but doesn’t see the garage. Maybe he sees the open road, maybe hears Zepplin playing. He takes his glasses off so he doesn’t have to have reality superimposed over what he’s seeing.

Then he grips the wheel.

He does it with hesitation, as if he thinks that by holding the wheel he’ll be able to feel Dean, long dead, and remember the life they led. His finger close over the wheel and his face crumples.

He can almost feel his brother right there with him.

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I’m slowly coming to terms with Party City!Sam 🔥🔥🔥

I feel the need to clarify how I'm feeling, as I've been posting a lot about my ship. I'm not only upset about the lack of Destiel, or Misha, or the fact that plots were swept under the rug.

Let's remove every single moment from this episode, except for Sam's apple pie life, for just a second ok? Ok.

What made the writers think this would make a good exit for him?

My reasons for hating this with my entire.. being upset.

Who the hell did he marry, and why was she wearing an ugly purple dress like the white nightgown Jess died in?

If he married Eileen which they have set him up for this entire season, why does she feel IRRELEVANT.

The fact that he vaguely maybe hunted? Seems more like he bailed after that one hunt. He didn't even become the new Bobby, no reiteration of "CHIEF." What was the point of that exactly? And let's not ignore the fact that if he did marry Eileen, do you honestly expect me to believe SHE would have stopped hunting?! This makes no sense to me.

The fact that he ONLY got his "freedom" and "peace" by removing every person he loved from his life. This is.. a bad message and I don't like it.

I understand grief. I get that the impala is where he needs to go to remember and feel. The watch was one of Dean's trademark accessories and now Sam has it. Yeah that fits. And I'm glad to see the writers didn't forget to give Sam a wedding ring (until he got to heaven, does that sort of thing not matter at that point?). But combine that with everything else, and it felt like Sam was clinging to his memories and his grief. This show has shown us what being unable to let go of people can do to someone's afterlife, ahem, ghosts that can't move on because someone won't let them. It just didn't sit right, but this is the least of my grievances.

The death scene, do you honestly expect me to believe that not a single "found family" member (except Bobby) had their picture taken to display on his disturbing wall of photos as he died? Are you kidding? I think there's one of his son, but not even his WIFE?! Or Jack? Or his dog?? But sure, nostalgia for his unworthy parents, instead of his "third brother" Castiel (don't get me started on Adam).

GIVE THE MAN A HAIR CUT FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS HOLY.

Ok I said ignore the rest of the episode for the purpose of this post, but just this once.. thaT BUTT-UGLY TIE at the beginning of the episode when posing as FBI?! Why. I'm sorry Sammy. You looked damn good with a narrow black tie, this was a disservice.

And last but MOST DECIDEDLY NOT LEAST. That Carry On My Wayward Son moment. When Dean turns baby on, I said "oh ok, this might be ok now, even after the disaster that I've seen this second half of the episode" and then... Sam dies and we hear... The song again.. but worse? It COMPLETELY took away from the EMOTION of playing it, period.

Let's just say, I smiled a bit and thought the first half of the episode was actually really good. I sobbed when Dean was dying. But the MOMENT this 'fast forward through Sam's life' started, I realized what a disastrous ending we were approaching. I felt sick. I feel sick. I tried watching it again, and I still feel... Incomplete, unsatisfied, frustrated, and frankly? Violated.

They took my favorite character and tore down every ounce of growth and independence he worked so hard for over the years.

Sammy, you will always be my king. You will always be the man who fought for everything and everyone. Who always saw the potential for good.

I'm sorry this was how things ended for you. I'm sorry you're stuck in a heaven with your father. At least you can see Jess, Jack, Cas, Bobby, Ellen, Jo, Ash, and a lot of other actual fan favorites again.