#ohinis100dop

photos from the main library on campus.

Wednesday, July 29, 2020, • 30/100.

I'm feeling more relaxed even tho I'm still struggling with the keto diet, but I'm feeling way better.

In the project I'm at grade 12 now, mixed feelings, I'm working to accept what I lost from that time, that I don't have any data or records of what I was doing and no matter how much I try to dig for something I won't find anything because I THROW IT ALL AWAY IN ONE OF MY PANIC ATTACK OR SM, so yea I hope I can move on from that.

Tuesday July 28 , 2020 • 29/100.

Decided to go with working at the morning, then enjoy "Twin peaks" up until mom and dad wake up from their nap, so i can use the light and work again.

To do that again!

Tuesday July 7, 2020 • 24/100 (my little sister made us cold chocolate drink!).

So since we don't have that developed technology to take classes online, we will go back to college after eid aldhaa, they say they are waiting for the gov to give us the green light, im not sure if it's safe to go back, i mean campus isn't even equipped with normal electricity let alone to have good places to be enough for social distancing!. And the dorms, god! a one room has 10 girls stacked up there!

I will try to keep this posts light and carefree, but the situation doesn't look any way better no matter how u keep seeing it from different point of views ugh!.

Ok!.

Back to business

I finished my notes for 1 subject out of 10, that's nothing compare to what's left i know but im proud of myself for working even through tough times, i mean electricity will be for like 5 hours only, so kudos to for doing that.

I decided to use my journal as a planning and keeping records tool, i know it's not something new. But for me it means that i can finally move beyond that wall, that fear of making any form of planning, all this is related to what i went through during my freshman year.

I never thought i would finish my project and even adapting to it, i no longer sit for an hour looking at my notes not doing anything, i would work even if it's not that perfect, even if i would only work for 15m, so im enjoying this ✨.

Whenever I feel like stopping or quiting, I would remind myself that this era won't happen again, and i will regret wasting this time later, so i need to enjoy it and live it to the fullest! That what kept me going even through dark anxiety episodes :).

We got a new dishes rack!

Wednesday July 8, 2020 • 25/100

Not something to be happy about, but hey! I do wash them dishes for long time now to ask for a new rack cuz the last one almost broke and would destroy my mom favorite set of tea cups.!

So what we finished today!

Not much, was mad and angry half the day and the other is just trying to finish my 2 out of 10 subjects notes, it's just our professor recording over whatsapp so yea, im proud of that.

Keeping with my journal even tho just random thoughts.

Enjoying "Ready to glare" contents on YouTube, it keeps me from drifting back to bad moods.

015/100 day of productivity.

Monday 24.02.2020.

017/100 day of productivity.

Thursday 27.02.2020.

such a beautiful, finished my papers, and re wrote my notes, also our department had a party and we ate traditional food, and we had a funny play at schoo of match, my friends did well for their roles,, and helped one of my friend after listening to her,i left college a little bit late cuz roads were closed since Germany official is here for meetings,so yeah was a good day somehow, all for now i want to sleep that's all.

Saturday April 25, 2020 • 21/100.

Today is first day of Ramadan, here we are fasting day later, hope everyone is staying safe.

This year no "Taraweh" prayers, and no mosques, so we will pray at home, also it first time fasting here in Khartoum, will at least for the whole month (Ramadan 2017 was here but only for one week).

Auntie is here cuz she couldn't go back to UK, so it's first time for us (me and my 2 other sisters to be with her).

We are enjoying our spiritual habits, from praying together, reading quraan, to family gathering, my mom, dad, and little sisters in our homeland are keeping us updated on their daily lives, hope we will see them soon.

I will be working on my "college experience" project, nothing more, i focus better if im working on one thing, besides finishing my unfinished dairies.

016/100 day of productivity.

Tuesday 25.02.2020.

today is one of those days that exists on it's own universe, the weather was truly something else, i ran away from my school to faculty of mathematics to study there and work on my presentation, from 8:30 am up until 5:00 pm which is something impressive, also no electricity at home so it was good that i finished everything at uni ✨💪🏻.