so i wanna talk about something, when i first started this blog, i wanted to be in studyblr community, i love it, i didn't know it existed up until 2018, i felt so bad so i decided that i will start one even if it's for one semester, then revolution happened ( December 2018) and our whole life changed for ever.
then, it starts to makes feel uncomfortable, cuz im pressure to have a certain style or regularly updating stuff.
when i see other people can do that, i felt as if im left out, that im being lazy, or that im not that much into this, but i was beating myself up, most people here have some access to better life needs, i mean when there's no electricity for like 12+ hours, or u don't have any money so u can pay for internet (it's so slow trust me!), and yes we don't have such thing as free wifi!, or im struggling to find transportation, or someone will try to steal my phone. so yea, i think the main reason here (somehow!) that having a head off start, can make it easy for some people, even using tumblr is a privilege for real, it costs Mobile data, that's why Twitter and Facebook are famous here, this took a lot of pressure from myself, i started to remind myself that i don't have what others have, it's a whole new system, sometimes i would save money so i can get my sheets (we don't have textbooks ://), so i won't eat, just water, or i can't get my sheets cuz i have to buy for my pills.
people here can't even get pens sometimes, or even finish school (especially girls), so i shouldn't be bragging, I'm privileged to go to college.
but im not complaining, i after all of this is trying to share some stuff with people here, i love this community, it tough me a lot, and it helped me through hard time, and i enjoy what im doing, this just explaining why i don't update regularly.
