#nullave

     A BLANKET OF SILENCE settles upon the air as sandalphon feels a swelling within his chest -- anger, he realizes, as lucilius’ words bite into his skin. skin he thought had become much thicker amidst it all, yet his nerves are alit so easily by words that, were he stronger, would mean nothing more than a reminder. he wants to bite back, to draw blood in return; yet there’s something within lucilius’ ever - lingering gaze that turns his anger into compliance as fingers curl inwards to his palms, fingernails digging within to distract himself with pain centered anywhere but his chest. after all, he had no one else to blame, in the end, but himself -- to allow tears over that person was foolish. selfish, really. as much as sandalphon wants to be more -- to be more than a weapon to both that person & the world itself -- he knows it can never be. at least as a weapon it was, for the time being, a purpose. a reason for being; a reason to be useful. red eyes that found themselves practically glaring a hole into the floor between himself & lucilius lift to the other ( yet his eyes remain trained just past the other’s gaze, as though avoiding it altogether. )

       Lucilius,

       Assuming that this has reached you, and that you haven't torn this to pieces upon realizing who it is from... I hope that you are well. It truly is unfortunate that it had to come to this, and that we could not ever see eye to eye.

I hope that you may take this time to think. You were certainly made better for it than I, after all.

...Sometimes, I think of what may have been, in a world where my master did not split apart. If you and I were entirely one and the same, as was intended. 'Twould most likely be a peaceful time, but I cannot picture it without feeling as if something is wrong. Is that peace what you had, even for a moment, with Lucifer?

I suppose I will never know. Perhaps I was never meant to know. But if it was... I am glad that you were able to have it.

feower-kun.... pspspsppsspps

reticentfist said: i'll lose my damn mind

i know, yet you tell me to make him

viceruin said: would have no choice but to make siete :/