#nuances

Côte landaise, Capbreton, Nouvelle Aquitaine, France

*good morning*

I wouldn’t say it’s the most concrete headcanon but I’ve seen a conversation floating around on the true wealth of the pillar family due to the jewelry of Hiya and Aunt toodaloo, and though it has a place to be true that they are of high status, I’d argue it’s only a really well put front to make it seem like their family is more wealthy and put together than they actually are.

Considering welcome home takes place in the 70’s, if howdy’s at the very least 25yrs of age, he would’ve been alive during the 50’s through 60’s where family image was heavily pushed and enforced by society. I do acknowledge that howdy being 25 still makes him very young for a conversion camp (being that at 8 years old it’d be the year 1957) but in the end it could also highlight just how important image may be to the pillar family, that they were willing to fix whatever they saw wrong with him “early” before it got too “unreversable”

Maybe it’s stereotypical but including the fact they are also butterflies seems like they’d care even more about image and prospect as they are seen as a “pretty” bug, whether or not that’s actually true.

Plus I feel like it could also add a more complex and strange dynamic between Howdy and his brother where his brothers is more obvious in his queerness yet experiences no consequences in the matter. (I may be wrong and something does happen behind closed doors)

Which leads to the idea that the family either:

1. Chooses to ignore it, of which Howdy is frustrated with as he was raised/taught that this matter was something to be “dealt” with.

Or a more frustrating (but less canon) number 2…

2. His family embraces it. They learn from media and from the growing times that maybe you can’t get rid of such queer attributes in a person. Which could lead to howdy being ultimately jealous towards his brother as he himself received no sympathy or kindness from his family when he showed any sense of queerness, further bottling himself up in these conservative values (and locking that closet shut)

There are many minor reasons that play a part with this theory like maybe him being older and possibly seen as more mature then his brother ergo he would “know better” but ultimately this is what I came up with. As of working on this post there has been people speculating something from the older bug audios but I’m not quite sure if those are canon anymore to be viable evidence.

source : @cheminer-poesie-cressant

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j’ai admiré 101 minutes de verts je les ai compté les uns après les autres la lumière les a fixé dans son recueil j’ai examiné la proximité de leurs nuances et leurs nuances sont devenues la durée de mon repos

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I admired 101 minutes of greens I counted them one after another the light fixed them within its collection I examined how close their shades were and their shades became the duration of my rest

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ho ammirato 101 minuti di verdi li ho contati uno dopo l’altro la luce li ha fissati nella sua raccolta ho esaminato la vicinanza delle loro sfumature e le loro sfumature sono diventate la durata del mio riposo

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The word accident is from casus, “fall” It echoes the great fall of Adam and Eve and suggests failure, the fall from grace and perfection. It is related to cadence, an ending, which in music and poetry has an important and satisfying aesthetic function. It is also connected to chance, the fall of the dice. All these senses of accident are at work when we pass an overturned truck on the road and can’t help twisting our necks to catch sight of this common portion of human life. Perhaps ultimately we are attracted to misfortune because it is a figuration of Death, whom we usually deny and yet with whom we have an intimate relationship.