#notluciddream

I can’t know right now if it will be tonight, in three days, the night before my histology exam, or maybe next month. There is simply no way in the world for me to know before hand when that will happen. But it will happen. Because all the pieces are where they should be, and really, for once in my life, for once ever since I was 14, I have no doubts about it. What I am writing right now are my genuine feelings on this process, I no longer feel like im trying to convince myself about this. Speaking of which. My outlook on this being a process has also changed. Let me tell you about it. When I first got into shifting, and for years really, I believed this was a journey. I unconsciously thought that I needed to fail before I succeeded. I associated those stupid symptoms during my attemps to being “close” to shifting to my DR. It was as if I expected to experience failure, because that’s what’s natural, right? In the same way I cannot play a guitar solo right now because I have never played the guitar before, I thought I should be “bad” at shifting before I was able to “be good” at it. Somehow. bc that’s not a great way of putting it but hopefully you get the message. But truth is, shifting is not a journey. It’s a phenomenon, an act. A deliberate act just as brief as snapping your fingers and as imperceptible as the beating of your own heart. Let me further develop this idea, bear with me jeje.

You see, the first time an ever shifted happened on a random night when I didn’t know reality shifting was a thing. I went to bed as I always did, and I woke up in an alternate version of my room. I didn’t know what shifting was, I didn’t know that it was possible and therefore I didn’t believe in it. Because you cant believe in something you don’t know exists. I didn’t have any intention of shifting, again because I didn’t know anything about it. I literally did nothing and didn’t believe. And I still shifted.

Lately ive been thinking about that and my other past shifting experiences and I have come to a few conclusions. Firstly, I literally don’t need anything to shift. Nothing. Not belief. Not intent. Shifting, as I have been reading in scientific investigations, is the result of a physiological change, or trigger in our brain. As shifters, we are learning how to trigger that so that we can use our brain and the ability to shift our consciousness to a reality to our favor and will. The fact that im using “big words” isn’t in any way with the intention of complicating the concept, it is just to express my own idea of it, but I will return to more basic statements. So. Since I don’t need absolutely anything to shift to my DR, that can only mean one thing. I already have what I need to shift. Because I don’t lack what I don’t need. In what this matter regards ig. That’s why, there is no process, there is no journey. Yes, for years I have been learning about all of this, trying to do it on command, and shaping my mindset to what it is today, but really, I could have shifted on the first try, because not even a good mindset is needed. It is helpful to shift on command, but if it were a requirement to shift, so many people wouldn’t have shifted on accident, unknowing of what shifting is, or even, as anti-shifters (who were then, by their own experience proven wrong). I don’t even know if I am making sense but I am making sense in my mind. Anyways, so since we don’t really need anything to shift, why not just shift, why not just choose to shift. Though I am not implying by any means that us shifters that have been in this for years have not been choosing to shift all this time. That would be cruel. We have been putting effort and intent, but now I am referring to the change in mindset that views shifting as an instantaneous shift in our perception not as as process that will lead us to achieve "what we need" to shift, because thats what it is. That’s why im doing these days, I know I don’t lack by any means anything that could make me shift. There is nothing different between me, you and those who call themselves master shifters because they shift to their DRs whenever they want. And I am the version of myself that shifts whenever I want. I could shift tomorrow to my DR and nothing would have changed really. That future version of me is the exact me as I am right now as I am ranting on my notes app instead of studying fucking histology.

Also, about the moment itself of shifting, to put is simply, both of the times I have fully shifted were on accident, I just fell asleep. I didn’t feel anything weird, I didn’t even know I was in a different reality until I proved it to myself. That’s why I no longer seek for any symptoms while shifting. After all, we describe these symptoms —dizziness, tingles, buzzing sounds?, spinning— as physical sensations, and although I myself have experienced those on multiple occasions, even while shifting back to my CR (though that’s a whole other story), they mean nothing, because we are perceiving them, or at least describing them through our senses. And I know some of these symptoms are not perceived exactly by our physical body, but still, choosing to focus on them is just a way of anchoring ourselves to the fact that we are not yet in our dr. that we are halfway there. And do we want to be halfway there? No. We want to be there. That’s why it’s no use focusing on symptoms. Plus, I know that senses shift last.