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AND IKR alskdjjfjdshjdk HER VOICE EVERY LYRIC EVERY NOTE WAS PERFECT this album is so different it’s so nice to hear how her music has changed and developed, Easy on Me was very similar to her old stuff and I liked it but I really reallyyyyy like Strangers by Nature (kinda got a Disney Princess movie background music vibe??) and Love is a Game - when she sang “what a cruel thing to self inflict that pain” I just… there are no words just wow

Knowledge

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A cleft lip (CL) contains an opening in the upper lip that may extend to the nose, which in my case, it does. The opening may be on one side, both sides, or in the middle.  A cleft palate (CP) is when the roof of the mouth contains an opening into the nose. I was born with both (CLP). These disorders can result in feeding problems, speech problems, hearing problems, and frequent ear infections. The treatment for children with CL, CP or CLP is surgery, speech therapy, and dental care. I’ve had all three options done. In total, I’ve had about seven surgeries (we’re not entirely sure, but I and my mother can remember at least seven)  in the course of twelve years. The condition was formerly known as a "hare-lip" because of its resemblance to a hare or rabbit, but that term is now generally considered to be offensive. I was severely bullied with my condition. I got called ugly, hare-lip, hare-lip kid, hare-lip boy, people told me my face and smile were ugly. The bullying lasted for so long and was so intense that I couldn’t smile or take pictures. I was afraid of smiling and the sight of a camera made me extremely nervous and anxious. Public speaking was not my thing, because I was scared people would only focus on my lip and nose, and not to what I was talking about. The bullying lasted for seven years. It started when I was around five or six years old, and it stopped in freshman year of high school when I was thirteen, although the teasing and name calling still occurs from time to time. I’ve grown immensely since the severe bullying stopped, and am now able to take pictures and record myself (as you guys can see on my blog, duh xd). But it will always remain something I’ll be self-conscious about. Sometimes I’m not bothered at all, but the next I’m able to literally tell myself I’m ugly and gross when looking at pictures of myself. Singing in the nearby presence of people, as well as the recording and posting of me singing, is also still an issue for me, but with time, it’ll get better.  If things are still a bit unclear, or if you just would like to look up more info, I’ll put some links down so you can check those out. Be warned though, some of the links will contain slightly disturbing/gore-y pictures of how a cleft palate exactly looks like.  Link 1 Link 2 Link 3 If you’ve got any questions about this and want to ask them personally. Please do not be afraid of asking them. I welcome questions and anything of that sort with open arms. If you’ve made it this far, thank you so much for caring xo. 

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