#nothingwillstopme

Looks exactly the way it did inside my head When I dreamed about it All the things I could live without I need 'em now 'cause they're all around me Only thing that I can't afford is to lose myself Tryna be somebody, somebody #explained #somebody #chainsmokers #me #notyou #dontjudgechallenge #dontneedyourapproval #dontneedyouropinion #idontcare #youcantstopme #nothingwillstopme 🍀 (at Cafe Marina) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnfEn4aHd_U/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ntlurdqo9brv

So I have 2 of me in my head. And it drives me crazy because I want to please them both. So this is my story. In 9th grade I was raped 4 times and half of me can't get over it. The other half is 67% passed it. One half is laid back and chill and focused on being successful. The other wants to make everyone as miserable as I am and wants to get fucked up constantly and just be feeling something besides loneliness. My bfs mom has diet pills and percocets and a lot of times I buy from her but if she saw how crazy I am about it, she would say no. I used to have a major problem with Molly and the diet pills make me feel just like my home girl did. Staying up all night and then going to work and feeling on top of the world. Like nothing can stop me. But the other half says no, I'll lose my job. A job that I worked so hard to get. And I don't want that to happen but I hate this plain feeling of being alone and scared. With drugs I can do anything and tbh I am scared of losing my job but I'm more scared of stopping my drug use. Life is too good with it for me to stop. The percocets not only make me numb to physical pain but also emotional pain. And I believe that's magical.

Mirror mirror on the wall, I’ll always get up when I fall. Whether I run, walk, or have to crawl, I’ll set my goals and achieve them all 💪 . . #run #running #fitnessgirl #fitnessmotivation #challengeaccepted #noexcuses #asics #fitnesslife #nothingwillstopme

Mittagslauf im Schnee 💪 | winter will not stop me | feeling like a champ 👟 #beastmode #noexcuses #nothingwillstopme #running #fitnessgirl #fitnessmotivation #challengeaccepted #newyearnewme #snow

DO THE THING YOU FEAR AND THE DEATH OF FEAR IS CERTAIN, #selfmotivation #facefear #nothingwillstopme #sunkissed🌞 #sundayfunday #outoff #🖤 (at India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CT_izZJqvM9/?utm_medium=tumblr

Week 5 in the books. No more excuses. Fat to muscle. Cancer cannot stop me. 5am workouts wake you up. #beastmodeon #liveyourbestlifenow #nothingwillstopme https://www.instagram.com/p/CMCQghcj58M4E0RDgqkRMGssYmtNFs1c9JGaos0/?igshid=1q35e33r9gkze

This is how a HIIT should look like on your performance sheet! In this case I did VO2max Intervals - Short Shuttles - 2 x 10 x 60s. Load (106 to 130% of Critical Power)/ 60s. active Rest (70 to 80% of Critical Power) It was a very hard session and a great way to push myself to the limit! I love it 🚀! #pushathletiktraining #transalpinerun #trainhardfighteasy #nothingwillstopme #marathontraining #marathoncoach #energysystemdevelopment #nideggen #firstbeat #vo2maxtraining #pushyourlimits #noexcuses (hier: Nideggen Eifel) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-X21zeBgfT/?igshid=1vvcx8i5vuxx1