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The airplanes of piana delle orme.

It's personal update time!

Things are going fron bad to worse, i failed the only exams i could do in time because the prof got angry i tried it during the thesis so i'm stuck in my internship working for free untill hopefully july and have to pay taxes for another accademic year.

With my girlfriend the distance is taking it's toll on an already unstable relation, i loved here and probably still do but i've seen here break any promise she made with me and caring about me less and less to the point we are now of just sharing meme on whatsapp, the last time she said she loved me was probably more than 10 months ago.

The prably saddest things is that i don't really care anymore, i was stressed and tired and couldn't share my feelings, now everything just flow over and me i grit my teeth and go on, i already failed 4 "last exams" one more or less will not matter in the end, if we still love each other things will turn out ok if we don't our life will go their separate ways eithet way is fine at this point. There are no more overarching grand plans for the future just everyday small objective. I feel i've lost something important but i can't really afford to care.

Will probably have a big crisis when this shitshow of a period is over.

On the bright side pochi is very playful and dumb this first days of spring and the walk we do every morning on the beach are the best moments of my days. From my thesis will probably be published 2 papers(the first is submitted next week) and i'm very proud of it, they will not drastically change sciences but the results are good and solid. I've lost weight and if things continue as they are i will have again a good body by the end of summer.

Sorry if this was too much of a rant but i fibd using this blog as an outlet is quite therapeutic.