It wasnāt safe when mama was raped at the age of 15
It wasnāt safe when slavery happened
It wasnāt safe when I was almost kidnapped, more than once
I told the man it wasnāt safe and itās the reason why I never had kids and never will
His weak reply was,Ā āBut thatās not a reason to not have kids.ā
ThatāsĀ exactly a reason not to have kids
Youāre conscious of how fucked up this world is
That there are fathers out there sexually abusing their own kids
Your parents did it to you
And it happened to them and the ones before them and down the line
Yet you still brought kids here
I am tired of people having such a weak reply
Looking at me like Iām the crazy one for preventing more pain
We have terrorists in our own country
We have people defending child predators
We have people defending rapists
We have religions enabling abuse and mental turmoil
Sexism and religious trauma
After the things that happened to me
The things that this world canāt get a handle on
Because even the police are guilty of abusing their own
Why would I EVER allow myself to get pregnant?
Itās foolishness if you ask me
But no one wants to be real about this
No one wants to be honest and admit that we, the human race, have lost control
We are the reason why this world is so evil
I am not weird or strange for having the self-control to prevent my body from procreating
I would feel guilty for consciously bringing an innocent child into the world
That my parents couldnāt protect me from
They allowed their GOD to compel them to have kids
A figure that has no form of evidence to prove it even exists
Clearly it does not exist because it sits back and watches
As men abuse their strength against women and children
As women allow their boyfriends to rape their children
A woman canāt answer her door anymore if someone knocks on it
Because traffickers are getting away with stealing them from safety
Why did she allow herself to marry and procreate
After the sexual trauma she experienced in her youth?
And to raise her children now with a coldness from within her
Brought on by the trauma she refuses to deal with
It is not right what happened to her and any of us
And it is not right to tough it up and go on with life as if nothing happened
I am angry that I was brought into this garbage world
With no savior to prevent weak men and mothers from harming their children
and repeating the sick cycle of abuse that is now out of control
I will do everything in my power to ring the alarm and put more men and women behind bars
Maybe itās on me to do the right thing
Since no one else is strong enough
Time to turn this anger and resentment into courage
And put the real demons behind bars for life