I really really really have a bad relationship with love because honestly my dad was busy working growing up, and my mom wasn’t much home either and when they were we couldn’t talk like that but it’s getting better! I moved schools some and every time I’d move I’d lose all my friends and girls didn’t like me like that until the last few years of highschool so I came out of all these ordeals a very fractured person who’s very difficult to love (from observation idk 🤕🤕🤕) I can’t do romance rn but I duly appreciate these two friends of mine and one other person...I’m really sorry love couldn’t work for either of us, but I really do appreciate the poetry and wanting to see me as much as you have and promise to see you soon, you genuinely deserve more but that’s all I can offer rn...if i could’ve (and i couldn’t ) let you in I’m sure I would’ve been happy but i guess it’s just life. I hope you find someone who loves YOU the way you’re meant to be loved, Miss Green Eyes. And then lastly, I guess, the elephant in the room. It’s really really really an honour to love someone, to have loved someone, to have been loved by someone, although I think things placed in a different way would’ve played out differently and although you were my queen I’ve come to realize that for love to work it has to be a two way street where both people are able to fully be themselves and since we haven’t been ourselves for a while, i pray you peace and hope that you find someone who loves you more than I love my colour blue!!! Today I’m happier, smiling a bit, and I hope it stays. Tomorrow if I’m unhappier, although I might not talk about it, i know it’s gonna be okay!