#non binary men

Men deserve compassion

Okay. So I hope someone would understand where I am coming from. I am a trans man but not a binary trans man. There is a small distinction that is a bit difficult to explain but it’s important to my identity and my perception of myself. I guess what I’m trying to say is that a cis man has not experienced the expansiveness of gender that I have experienced. A cis man has lived his whole life in this “box” and I know what it’s like to be treated as a girl in society. (Trust me, I’ve lived as one for years) Because of my appearance I can understand how some people would confidently call me she/her and he/him. I know what’s it’s like to be perceived as every gender and I know how someone can be so deeply confused when they look at me. I don’t quite fit in that box of, man, male or cis. That’s not something I have ever experienced and I don’t want to. I want to have this masculine base. I want to create this person. I want to feel more comfortable in my body and expand off that. I want to explore gender again. That is so so important to me. I’m more than a man. Im not just male. I can stand next to that box but I don’t quite fit. It’s deeper than just being perceived and socialized as a women and it doesn’t mean any less man. It’s just a different experience. If 1 is a woman and 100 is a man. Then I’m like 80. I’m not nonbinary but I wouldn’t say I’m 100 percent a male. I’m somewhere between nonbinary and a male. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to been seen as a man in society. I want to someone to be like, “yeah that’s a man.” It’s just that I want to wear whatever I want and still be seen like that. I believe that nonbinary trans men and binary trans men are valid. I do view gender as a spectrum. I’m going to explore lol and I really hope someone understands. I know with some people it’s a fairy common experience it’s just very hard to put into words. 😅