#nofatshaming

The tension ebbed as my inner lush came through

My eyes fixed on the sparkle in yours

My second bedpost notch was about to be you

As we entangled ourselves upon the living room floor

Clothes did not come off frantically

But rather slow and sensual

You undressed me to the soul gently

While my body shame raged, your face was impartial

Your eyes never left me, you drank me in

Telling me sweet lies about my beauty

Adoring every inch of skin

The skin I’d hated since before puberty

The moments were long but the night short

Hating myself every step of the way

But as dawn drew near you gave me support

And loved me until the light of day

We parted ways on a sweet note

Affection in your eyes

A lump began to fill my throat

As we said our only goodbyes

You taught me how to love myself

Good enough exactly as I am 

My worth no longer on some shelf

I’m fat, and he didn’t give a damn

You saw me bare and broken with all of my scars

You saw what is inside as out

I could tell by your eyes full of stars

Thank you is all I muster as you kiss away my doubts

Our eyes drift apart, our hands let go and I slip away

With the gift of a fleeing moment of self love