#fibroids

soooooo, guess who is pretty much going to have a hysterectomy?

I didn’t know that was going to be an option, so when he brought it up I had to school myself not to be like:

anyway I need to try a medication for three months but that also cuts oestrogen and progesterone so still a win (if not for my bones, rip) and then I can sign on. I really wanted to say ‘please give me a hysterectomy’ straight off, but then was like wow that’s a really emotional response you just had to something you didn’t know was possible for you, chief. I think you do need to process that a bit so you don’t then freak out on the eve of your surgery or something.

sorry for overshare, I just have feelings and need to let it out a bit. I don’t talk about gender stuff with my family so I couldn’t be like ‘this will probably help with the dysphoria we never talk about’ but yeah. it could? maybe?

but also on the other hand I saw the mri images and there are so many growths in my body, which is awful and I have a lot of feelings about how fucking long some of them must have been growing there. it sucks. that’s where all my energy has been going, and why my brain fog has gotten so bad, like…my body is putting so many of its already limited and overburdened resources into growing bullshit in my uterus. that fucking blows!