#nihil interit

Dear Caroline:

About a year and a month ago I discovered your blog and become very positively surprised by its author, her intelligence, personality and her shared thoughts. Shortly after I starting mining those ancient posts of yours in an archeological attempt at a conversation with you. As I've written time and again, its main purpose was to express my sympathy and support for you, and my confidence in your essential moral goodness at a time when you were being pretty much universally pilloried and had a difficult trial ahead of you.

A year and month have passed, and I have found myself finishing the archeological survey, having practically exhausted all the texts you wrote. This puts a severe cap on the continuance of our (pseudo)conversation, as I will no longer have a text to answer and comment upon every day. I could continue writing thoughts of empathy and consolation, but dried up your vivifying rivers of water, that bringeth forth the fruit in its season, my own words would dry up and wither; they would probably become irrelevant and disconnected from your thoughts, and very possibly uninteresting, like the chaff which the wind driveth away.

And even though your posts are ended, that doesn't diminish the impact your words have had on me. I think I can say with confidence that they have left indelible mark, and opened up new intellectual vistas for me (Rationalism, EA, Economics, Utilitarianism Cryptocurrencies, ratfics). I look forward to carrying these insights into my future ruminations.

I still have your book reviews to fall back on to, and I will continue to read at least one of your recommendations every month, and afterwards posting a reflection about it here. Should further news or texts related to you appear in the future, I will be also attempt to dialogue with you / them in this little virtual space.

Dear Ms. Ellison, you are the most interesting and intriguing individuals I've come across in a long time, and besides, my confidence in your virtue remains unwavering. I can only wish for the best of luck in your near future, when sentencing comes and goes (and hopefully, a light one at that) and when you go back to some semblance of normality and healing. You might have made important mistakes and suffered serious missteps, but you will recover and heal. And I am confident the world will be made a better place for your being and acting in it.

Wishing you resilience, strength, and a future filled with positivity.

Warm regards,