#nextleft

📷 jb

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One coping strategy that I have is escapism. Actually its the main strategy that I have. The ways I escape is generally through audio. I listen to podcast stories and music and they have a great power to let me keep productive while I can keep my mind busy with visualizations of what is going on in the stories. The wide variety helps as well. Right now I’m currently listening to well over two dozen stories. and at least 12 update weekly with new content. This form of escapism helps keep my mind busy. The form of escapism that damages my relationship with people is the escapism of oblivion. This is escape into my phone. where i scroll facebook and whatever else for hours on end. I know that this is a problem but I can not stay away. I try and give myself timers or delete everything but it always slowly works its way back. I’m hoping by acknowledging this I will be able to actively work on this better than just mentally saying it. THe biggest problem with escapism as a strategy is when other people don’t recognize it as a coping strategy and just see it as you avoiding them. I’m trying to escape the stress and to me this is the healthiest way. Its better than be turning to alcohol or anything else. But my partner just sees it as me avoiding her and takes it personally. I’ve tried to let her know how it helps and why I do it but it never sinks in for long. I’ve tried to get her into podcasts so we could listen together but we have very different tastes in what we listen to. In the end I just couldn’t keep it up and trying to get her involved was just exhausting.