tw// su*c*de
not to be dramatic or anything but. shit.
you ever feel like you missed your chance to kys?
like, i had all this time to do it. i had those moments where i was literally seconds away from attempting but was stopped either by myself or something else.
i shouldve done this shit a long time ago. now i’m a senior heading into adulthood and even tho i do have a solid plan for college and what i wanna do once i graduate, i still just feel like... idk.
i didnt plan to still be here by now, but now that im here i feel like it’d be too late to do it?
now im planning for college life and for prom and as much as i’m excited for these things, there’s also the dread of knowing that a) so much stress will come from these things, and b) if i try to attempt something now it would be such a horrible time to do it.
idk. i just feel like i waited too long and now i’m stuck. i’ve always felt stuck, but now i really do.
sigh. it’s almost like... i lived through a lot of my major issues and i’m finally reaching my end goal, but i almost feel like i don’t know if i deserve it?
i dont know what i’m feeling but i just kinda wish i’d had the guts to just end this shit a long time ago so i wouldnt have to deal with this now
