I hate being alone with my thoughts sometimes. I just feel stupid and useless and feel like I can’t do a single fucking thing right.
My degree is meaningless if I can’t even get a stupid lab technician job, or feel like every scientist who meets me is judging the absolute shit out of me the entire time. I’m positive that all of my science-degree classmates think I’m fucking stupid, too.
And I’m too scared to take the shorter route out of this situation I call life... Ha ha ha. Watch me end up being where I am for another entire year and nothing to show for it.
Useless. Stupid. An absolute waste of my parents’ investment and four years’ worth of college money down the fucking drain.