#needingchange

Female? Male? Prefer not to say? Which one?

So many people have asked me who I am, I’m not any of the above. I don’t fit into any of the above. I’d actually really want to say, but I don’t get that option. 

When I was 7, I wanted to play football. I couldn’t, because I was born a female. I could play soccer, but not football.This is my story. 

I’m genderfluid. Most people don’t understand how I can change. One second I’m comfortable as a female, then the next I’m having an anxiety attack because I feel masculine, but I look more feminine. The hardest part is passing as one, then when you are out in public, you feel the opposite or somewhere in between masculine and feminine. Nobody understands that, unless you’ve been through it. We are pushed into gender roles, females give birth and watch kids, men work. That’s how it was in the old days, and that is how some people want it. Times are changing though, thank goodness. If I have to argue another pastor about basic human rights I might go crazy, if I haven’t reached it already. 

Why can’t we, those of us who don’t fit within the boxes, get an option? Why do I have to feel ashamed of who I am? Why do I have to hide, because the general consensus is uncomfortable with anything aside from the “norm”? I’m not normal, and I know that. I stick out enough in this world, but maybe just maybe, if the adults would listen and try to make a change, then the youth could feel accepted. This is not all adults, that’s not what I’m saying at all. I’m sick of feeling alone when someone tries to figure out my gender. I’m sick of being called a dyke when I date a cis female. When I date a cis guy, then it is even worse because then I’m a tramp. Why, does it get this bad? Why are people so cruel? It isn’t that hard to just care about other people. Please, someone, anyone, just help make a change. This world needs one, and a big one. 

I think you need a hug.